He is to be felt in the seen & the unseen,
Verily there are signs for the believers,
Be steadfast & do not waiver,
For there are rewards,
Beyond thou imagination,
Thou shalt see & witness its happening,
And then shall it be proved,
Let the faith be blind ,
O ye believer,
Thy strength in in thy preserverence,
For when ye was in agony& thy heart cryeth out for help,
He was closeth to you than thy bossom,
And when thou calleth Him,
He opened his gates of mercy,
So open ye heart unto Him,
He who hath all knowledge,
Of days & nights,
Of moons & sun,
Of seasons and fruits,
So guideth thy soul to piety,
For he is the most gracious
Gypsy
roun’ the fire,
danced slowly,
to rythm and beats,
enticingly ,
smoothly ,
the toes moving as a serpent,
slick and suave,
as ambers of fire cast shadows,
flexing the arms,
swirling,
in a rage she moves,
bewitching,
captivating,
glistening skin,
dancing the night away into oblivion..
End
O’ ye adamite,
behold!
do not rejoice your delay,
as it shall not last,
bow your head,
unto thy creator,
for there is an end,
to the sun ,
to the moon,
to this delusive world,
and to you,
naked shall the soul be then,
an attire of mud and clay cast off,
to return,
to give away ,
which never was yours,
to lie deep in the heart of earth..
Lullaby
So long o’ moon ,
Adieu o’ my knight,
Kiss me farewell ,
My beau ideal,
Soft and silky against my arms,
Holding your scent,
Lingers and haunts my dreams,
Oasis for my thirst ,
Slow caress,
Sighs,
Dancing shadows,
Tender heart beats,
Secrets hidden in thy sly smiles,
Painful as it is ,
But I part with thee,
O’ charmer,
O’ necromancer,
Do daze me ,
As I wash away ,
Every single trace,
Resting my head,
On the clouds of prayers,
Sing to me ,
Yet again,
A lullaby,
Ever so sweetly,
Gently,
Divinely,
Cast your spell…
Lost Voices
I lack the power,
To reach inside and blind out the knavery,
A sense of betrayal and faithlessness,
A perfidy to this sacred engagement,
With myself and my numb soul,
To furnished lies and mockery,
Of twisted accuracy,
I am but an infidel,
Witness to fickle laison with life,
Mirror to misty reflections,
feeble echoes ,
Of lost voices
Orb
Set free,
Abandon them,
Those crystal balls,
Part with the ambers of rage,
Bright roses of innocence,
Turquoise waters,
Opal dew,
Let go,
Grayness of a cloud,
Holiness of green,
Revolution in red,
Innovation in blue,
Hold it inside,
Conceal the silence,
A cherished desire,
Drift into a peaceful slumber,
Of dusky bleakness,
Of raw desolate twilight
The Last Leaf
Way up,
On a high branch,
Hangs the last leaf,
Golden,
Fragile,
Clinging onto a dried branch,
Spring’s last hope,
As autumn is strewn on the ground,
A prediction to an end,
Of flowery ornaments ,
Of blossoms,
Of beauty,
Swaying on a melancholy cold tune,
Wind sealing its fate,
Falling upon dead grass,
To be blown away,
Abandoning its beloved tree,
Withdrawing from all rights to nature,
To wither away,
To vanish.
Rise
O ye deluded masses,
rise!
Be not the dull race,
For thy lord is waiting for thee victory,
Open ye arms to the golden sun,
Harvest your strength against storms, rains of gloom and thunders of tyranny,
Spread the warmth & trust,
Justice and freedom,
Learn to hope,
Learn to dream,
Ignite the spark that fuels the soul,
Fall we may,
To hold and to support,
To unite and fight,
And “rise” we shall,
Against all odds,
Against all demons,
Be the voice that shakes every grain,every mountain and every river ,
Rise like waves and leap forward like fire ,
Let not the bloodhounds prey on us,
Rise with vigour and chivalry,
Rise with dignity,
O ye masses !
Rise and unite.
Time well spent..
Moods can be strange , my cat growled differently at me, my pigeons seem louder than usual , the dog has been howling in a perfect rythm , the dripping tap doesn’t seem that irritating, ticking clock and my cell shrieks the usual ring tone ” you’re my honey bunch ….sugar plum etc etc ” .
Took two days off work intentionally, planning things I wanted to catch up on…yet all I did was sleep and have mushy conversations with my better half – not bad actually .
Unflexing the taut and stressed out muscles is ok once in a while . A cup of steaming coffee , untouched , finger tracing the rims , a book half read lying on the bed , propping up on the elbows , lying flat on the stomach, swaying the legs …. wait a sec ? I actually enjoyed myself – been a while since I did that…
Certainly calls for a celebration – some pakoras maybe with loads of ” anaar dana” init ..
I did pick up a canvas today …just wasn’t in an emotionally turbulant state , usually need that as a catalyst for some wild strokes.Well then it had to be a little singing , with the quietest corner found, I shyly uncoil the rusty strings in the throat. A few favourite nayyara noor ghazals , tina sani , nazia , vital signs , lata rafi ones … enough .. let’s wash the lounge floor ..crazy yet interesting..
Filled up a bucket , splash water on the marble , take the slippers off , need the cinda – freakin – rella act perfect and then moppin up … goood … as good as soul cleansing …I wipe and wipe and wipe till the palms go sore..
Time to rest … with a 45 + on the outsides , I draw the curtains , lie back , pick the book again…
Cat of nine tales hmmm why can’t that shop keeper get me the prison diaries ..he keeps replacing the ones I buy , never adding anything new to the collection.
Throwing the book back , I grab ” whitney my love” Hubba Hubba – this better be good , A woman needs to spoil herself at times . Half book read , excited to finish the rest ..even though the story is SO predictable … I dose off… tucking myself in the sheets ..hugging the ol worn out teddy…
Waking up to the phone bell , not wanting to leave the warmth of the bed ….”hello – hello – hello ” I hang up ,why the hell do they call when they don’t want to speak up …
I look at my image in the mirror-” you’re asocial ”
So what – ” you’re a lil messed up in the head too ”
I know , I know ..only proves that am a genius -self- ego-boosting -mechanism…
How in the world did I settle for a relationship , amazing , never thought I could – I keep surprising myself …and others probably ..
Most of my friends knew for sure I was going to die a bachelor or die of an ailment in a dark , moist room with no friends and family . All I did was betray them , step out of the league I so dearly loved and rubbed off a little dramma from their and my life.Not just did I settle for this “ONE” person , I actually stopped admiring good looking opposite gender.Good going! There was a time when after playing the charming docile lady for a while , I would kill the prey and feed it to the dusty pages of history and smile at it laters …My sadistic tendencies came to a halt all of a sudden when I saw someone very dear suffer because of it.
To this date , I have never understood what rolling along with the momentum of life mean, is it to be who we are , age , achieve , lose and die? Or is it living in an illusion ,grabbing what we can ,taking chances , growing into layers and layers of years , memories , regrets , letting the grains of sand creep away from the cracks between the fingers and a voice that weakens as it goes far away…
Coming back to where I was – it is in these moments that these strange questions stop bothering me as I purge them out of the system …A load off my chest , time well spent..
For Return He Must…
The leather boots,
stamped and marched,
those weary eyes searched,
when all left,
waiting on an empty station,
with frail legs and wrinkled hands,
sat there, a mother,
maybe the next one,
maybe tomorrow,
as the train whistled away,
he’s a valiant,
he’s a warrior,
I cannot lose hope,
in pride I must live,
O! my perfect one,
I know, return you must,
for I am waiting,
for all the prayers in the deep of the night,
for all those days when I slept hugging your shirt,
for all those times when I thought I heard you knock at the door,
Be safe be well,
be strong,
A lone tear trickles down,
I mustn’t cry , I mustn’t cry,
“dead” they say , I do not believe ,
you’re my stalwart,
with her tender grey locks ,
every day she saw,
fathers , lovers & sons,
every day she sat there,
broken in spirit,
but firm in hope.
For return he must,
for return he must…